playing ticket is therapeutic.

i wanted to eat dinner with the family today.. thats why i hung ard in hougang, waiting for mum to be done with hair and prob hoping that dad will swing past to pick us up. but due to some miscomm, im left "stranded" and had to eat dinner alone. i hate eating alone. not too sure why im so anal about it or i probably dislike having MY plans thwarted. maybe also i din like the sms i saw. i was very prepared to hop on a cab and meet them back where they are. but i was kinda disappointed by the reluctance on the sms.. i just dunno wad im feeling and as i try and evaluate it further clear-mindedly, i just cant seem to find an answer but it can be bcos i wasnt level-headed enuff yet.

as i sat in the bus, big drops kept falling out and ive no idea why they are dropping. i just felt really tired. maybe it's my unexplainable mood swings. maybe it's not enuff sleep - fell asleep at abt 2+. im surprised at how long i lasted today.

i dun really know wad i want and i dun wanna send off the wrong signals. but maybe i say the wrong things and i invite trouble all over again. argh. super argh. but i think one thing still remains that is undeniable - time is the essence.